My Dear Friend

I know I have not posted for a long time and there are so many fun things I will post soon but right now I need to just let all my feelings out....

My Dear sweet friend passed away this morning, can I just tell you how sad I am feeling right now, sad and angry. Eva jean Hadley was an amazing women, she was my Utah mom as she would say "Amber is my dearest friend, but she should be my daughter" I went to her for everything and she would never judge me, but listen to me and always give me the best advice she could, she would tell me when I was being irrational and calm me when i was hurting, she was there for me when Gavin and Logan where hospitalized, she sat with me for hours as I cried, she was there when Josh had his accident and I felt so alone and so frustrated she was there to keep me a float. I know she is in a better place and probably looking down saying "Amber, dry those tears and lift your head and just keep going" She always said "Be kinder than necessary everyone is fighting some kind of battle" I guess I am just being selfish cause I should be happy she is in a better place, but why did she have to lose her mind a week before the lord took her from us? I am so very grateful I spent the last week of her life by her hospital bedside even though she didnt know what was going on she never forgot who I was. I pray for her husband Jack that he will have peace with all this and be able to stay strong. I know it will be hard going back to work to take care of Jack and not being able to see her smiling face answering the door and to listen to her stories and to cook with her and talk about which book we are going to read next, I am truly going to miss her. I love you Evie and will think of you every day, "Tell we meet again"........