Ruptured Appendix=pain=stress=more hospital bills

Remember about 3 post down I said I was going to be positive this year, well I think that just went down the toilet! Wednesday night Joshua had emergency surgery to remove his appendix which ruptured, it was contained so the infection did not cover his whole stomach which is awesome cause he dose not have to have the tube in him so that's one thing to be grateful for and that he is feeling a lot better. He has some pain when trying to get up the stairs and in the car but for the most part he is recovering great! On the other hand he can't left anything over 15lbs for 6 weeks, so I guess watching the kids while I work is out of the question since Noah is a whooping 22lbs, so any volunteers to help would be greatly appreciated:) I don't mean to sound so negative but I am a little tired of all this! I am trying so hard to just make ends meet until Josh can get back on his feet, and now I am going to be taking a second job because workers comp has informed us they will no longer be paying us, Yippee! So now what? I have no idea what to do, I feel like my life is so out of control and there is nothing I can do about it but have faith. I know things will work out they always do just maybe not the way I would like them but they do. I just keep telling myself "It could be worse Amber" and then something happens, so I think I am done saying that phrase. I just want a break PLEASE!!!!