We finally had some family pictures done! My Brother Ryan was nice enough to put up with all of us. It's so hard to get pictures when you have little ones, they just get so cranky but we actually got some really cute ones, I hate getting my pictures taken but my friends keep telling me "You want your kids to have pictures of there mommy to" So I did it guys:) It's been a hard year but without these guys I would have fallen apart, yes I have had many moment's of insanity but by the end of the day I can look at what I do have , I am blessed I know that, I am not quite sure if I can say I am totally grateful for these trials with Josh yet, someday maybe? I am truly grateful he is still here with me but I am sadden by the little things he struggles with every day, the remembering, the fatigue, his strength all the things we take for granted he has to try 10x harder. I think reality is sinking in with me and ever since my mom has came to my rescue I think I am finally falling apart. People say how strong I have been but I feel so weak, Josh is the strong one. He is dealing with a whole different body and mind now and he never complains and if he does he does not do it around me. Some days I feel like crawling in a whole and other days I feel like I can keep moving on. We both are so grateful for my mom, she was prompted to come up here and she was right! We really needed some extra hands through these hard times. I just keep praying every day that Josh will keep getting stronger and that I will make it through this and still be the mom and wife I should be. "One day at a time"
Thursday, October 1, 2009
melting down!
We finally had some family pictures done! My Brother Ryan was nice enough to put up with all of us. It's so hard to get pictures when you have little ones, they just get so cranky but we actually got some really cute ones, I hate getting my pictures taken but my friends keep telling me "You want your kids to have pictures of there mommy to" So I did it guys:) It's been a hard year but without these guys I would have fallen apart, yes I have had many moment's of insanity but by the end of the day I can look at what I do have , I am blessed I know that, I am not quite sure if I can say I am totally grateful for these trials with Josh yet, someday maybe? I am truly grateful he is still here with me but I am sadden by the little things he struggles with every day, the remembering, the fatigue, his strength all the things we take for granted he has to try 10x harder. I think reality is sinking in with me and ever since my mom has came to my rescue I think I am finally falling apart. People say how strong I have been but I feel so weak, Josh is the strong one. He is dealing with a whole different body and mind now and he never complains and if he does he does not do it around me. Some days I feel like crawling in a whole and other days I feel like I can keep moving on. We both are so grateful for my mom, she was prompted to come up here and she was right! We really needed some extra hands through these hard times. I just keep praying every day that Josh will keep getting stronger and that I will make it through this and still be the mom and wife I should be. "One day at a time"
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3 comments:
Love the Pic! Ryan did an awesome job. I also love your strength. You inspire me to be stronger and face challenges without complaint. I'm sure "one day" you will be grateful for these days, but today.. you don't have to be! Today, you do have to just face it all one day at a time and someday you will learn why you had to do it all! LOVE YOU GUYS!!
Keep the Faith Amber. You are stronger then you know. I miss your Mom, however her job right now is with you and your sweet family. The blessing will flow as you all begin to heal. Thanks for the post, Ryan took some wonderful pictures.
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